So... this is whats going on between me and my bf

This is my man and I.
Heres the situation with him:
We started going out in March. He cheated on me but I fell in love with him so I put up with it. Never called him on it but got depressed around him because it was all I could think about. The depressed side of me pushed him away and we broke up. He started going out with the chik more and that was that.
When he and her started to die down and my depressed ways were improving he asked me back out. I said yes because, stupidly, I still love him. Now... he still goes out with the other chick, Maria or Ria or whatever and I know this because I found his and her LJs and Ive read all the stuff about him on her myspace so I know whats going on with that but he won't admit it.
Yestersday I was supposed to go to his house and chill until 3 because thats when his dad comes home and his dad hates me with a passion. So I call him a few times at 2 because I still hadnt heard from him. He yells about how he was asleep and I was fucking blowing up his phone. Damn right I was! I had every reason to especially when three other people were trying to get me to hang out with them yesterday! I had to know if we were gonna chill or not so I could hang with someone else.
Ive been emo around him lately (you can even tell in the picture) because of the whole Maria thing and the fact that I keep comparing him in my head to the worst ex of all time: Ronaldo. Used to love the boy, he did something so foul I can't stand him anymore but I saw him the other day and it has me thinking about Greg turning into him. Scary thought.
So Im not gonna call Greg at all. Wait for him to call me. Not inviting him over, wait for him to ask [except for Thanksgiving because my dad wants him over for that]. Becauseeeee if I do either he will be pushed away again and we'll break up again. I know I can make him break up with the other chik because Ive made him break up with chiks before but I can't be all over him or it won't work.